10 AUGUST 2008 ~

OFFICIALY 15! yeeppa :D
dont know what to say. well my parents dont make any parties for me *cus i refused =P*
and their present for me is MONEY, not THING =x but its okay for me.
should i buy Mimi MP3 (mp3 that shaped lyk Mickey Mouse), new shoes (fyi, i just have a pair of shoes, believe it or not. yeap, the one that i use for school), or what..?
btw, 15 is Super Junior! (incuding cumi and henry xD) hehe

i just found EunHyuk's YouTube profile xD
everything's written in Hangul, i just understand a bit
*well, not EVERYTHING but just THINGS THAT HE WROTE*
i count this as a present too.

GYAHA~ ellora/onnyura made a b-day topic in SHINeendonesia for me! xD
*teary eyes* *happy* aaah this is my first b-day topic EVER! :)

yesterday i treated Achie, Mamai, and Ferty for cinema, The Dark Night *a psychopatic Joker's film >> yea, i think the film is JOKER's, not Batman's*
well, it was just 5k each, but still~ :P and i think i miscounted the amount.
i should give Ferty 5k tomorrow.
tomorrow = SHITTY PHYSICS HOMEWORK, and MATH TEST *but maybe that silly Mr.Eri will cancel it again coz the first hour is going to be used for flag ceremony*
*for him, that's an enough reason*

bdw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :DDD lalala~

hodong and taemin .. ?

god. i think i just saw something creepy.. but also hilarious. xD
love taemin's expression! and boom expression.. lyk.. say, he's jealous? xDDD
*slapped*

credit: asianfanatics + ridha@shineendonesia + taciturnish.blogspot.com

7th death. geez.

am i die? yes, youre die, zee.
once again.

yappp. once again, zee, your crush knows that you have a crush on him.
aaahhha~ feels like cat.
first crush, he knew, me die.
second crush, he knew, LUCKILY this time he became my boyfriend. :PP
but then.. again..
third crush, he knew, my second death.
fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth crush (now)..
i died, died, died..
i died seven times.
so i have only 2 souls more in my bank.

ps: i have many crushes, i know.
but i only write those who take/took/taken the 1st place in my heart. nyahha~

suju members said that henry is..

HENRY DI MATA ANAK'' SUJU.
[i added my comments :PP]

Kang In : Benar-benar anak yang sopan. Sangat rendah hati.
makasih.. xD *ditampol henry & kangin*
Lee Teuk : Umur Henry yang paling muda, masih suka malu-malu.
Han Geng : Sesama saudara dari Cina. Aku harap kalian bisa mencintainya sama dengan kalian mencintai aku.
Kyu Hun : Akhirnya kita bertambah satu orang yang bisa diajak masak nasi goreng Beijing.
... no komen bang. ;P kalo udh jadi bagi ya.
Hee Chul : Aku masih menganggap diriku yang paling cantik.
NICE ONE, heenim! xD
Shiwon : Henry harus berusaha keras. Bahasa Mandarinnya masih lebih parah daripada aku.
hoo.. pantesan di acara itu [lupa namanya] henry nulis pake alfabet mulu.. bari yg laen gagayaan nulis pake pinyin. :D
Dong Hae : Dengan hadirnya Henry, tugas kami di Cina akan kami jalani dengan penuh percaya diri!
Eunhyuk : Menurut kalian, siapa yang lebih cantik antara Zhoumi dan Henry ?
ga da yang cantik. cumi ganteng, henry ucul.
Yesung : Mereka berdua sama-sama berjuang! Semangat ya!
Kibum : Henry, kau harus mengajariku bermain biola!
Ryewook : Baru kali ini aku bertemu dengan orang yang pemalu seperti HENRY !
.. bang ryeowook ga ngerasa kalo sendirinya kek gitu yha?

Credit : henrylau.cn + Flawless Indo + Sujunesia.net + siwonditjot3.blogspot.com

jackets + clothes!

omona. i found another design and i want to make it too! xDD guess what.. that is *ta-da* KEY'S BLUE OUTFIT [yeah, complete with that bra-strap thingie. hahah].

but im not sure with that bra strap cuz maybe it will be easily teared off. :P but still, the design in <3!

well. for this time i wont offer mamai and ve cuz im sure they'll refuse this one. what's the meaning of 'SHINee' for them, anyways? > but SHINee for me: a bunch of husbands. xDDD *slapped*

ps: hari ini gue bolos ARTIVI a.k.a. bolos sekolah. haha mampus biarin ah, sebodo teuing, da bokap udah ngebolehin.

ARTIVI day one.

tiring artiloe [this year, the name is artivi cuz the theme is ‘television’]. honestly, i hate it soooo muchie. comparing to the 2009's artiloe [last year], this is soooo freakin TERRIBLE, from the less preparing time, weirddd theme they chose, etc etc.

WELL. the artivi itself is VERY UNIMPORTANT or you usually call it GEJE in indonesian. temporary gallery at the corridor [which made us spend hours just to make the wall], boring film-making tutorial [for me it more looks like a Pond’s Flawless White promotion to schools], and the worst: please welcome our lovely KANJUT KANST who think they have 100000% right to rule us, by not allowing us to go [and treat us like prisoners in azkaban] and make us like birdies in cage, and there’s two KANST guarding the gate while DATING? oh please.

gotta remember this is STILL THE FIRST DAY. omg.
and by the way, i want to stay at home tomorrow. DONT HELL CARE WITH THAT BBUNDAEGI.
sorry, classmates.

quote of the day.

the past is unforgotten.
even if we want to erase the memories,
we have to remember that life is no sheets of paper.
we can heal the bad feeling, but we cant throw the memories away.

by zee. pathetic lame silly lil girl. definitely a big liar.

jackets!

i want to make a jacket,..
but it turns to 'i want to make jackets' since mamai and ve want to make it too.

i said that i want to make something that looks like this one [see picture], but it wont be so same since we have less budget: i still want the rabbit-eared hoodie, but ve wants the bear-eared edition and mamai wants a rat/cat-eared edition. ZOMG i dont think we'll get discount. yes, we order three in a time, but with three different designs..? besides, we dont know where to make it.. xDD

any suggestion? can name a store in bandung that can make extraordinary designed jackets like that and preferably CHEAP?
x))

picture credit: sechuna.com

guitar lesson.

guitar lesson! ahaha yeahh.
ive learnt just for.. say, 3 days? xDD
yeaa i know its a veeerrry short time,
and i dont expect antonio banderas' tango.

and rite now im learning Romance de Amor.
i can play the piano, but the guitar.. only few notes.
[still confused with the fingers' movement.]
[besides.. i have no nails! xPP ohnoes i regret my habbit of biting nails]

still. i have three "teachers" in my class.
1. big teacher [this guy is the 'fake hankyung' i told]
2. small teacher.. wtf is this name? well, this is kim jiwon, max changmin lover.
3. tribal chief. another wtf-this-name. xDD this is qonita, xiah junsu freak. *killed*

well, i really hope i can play this Romance de Amor in one or two weeks.
and rite now im searching for the notes.
hope my piano skill can help. :P

note: i named my guitar HANGENG. xDD
for him whose name i use, permit me please~

i give up.

널 사랑해..가슴 아파도 괜찮아
널 사랑해..눈물 흘러도 괜찮아
니가 다른 사람 만나서 나보다 행복하다면
난 괜찮아 널 사랑하..니까..

[I love you… Even though it pains my heart, it’s alright
I love you… Even though my tears flow, it’s okay
If you are happier with someone else than you were with me, it’s fine
Because… I love you]

thats what im feeling now.
yeap. i give up.

i realized that i cant hope for him.
i know it already.
he doesnt love me.
he loves my friend. yeaah, her.

this is the end of my pathetic lovestory.
i wont love someone again for a while.

song: sg wannabe - cheotnun

triangle love. HELP.

aduhh udah ga jaman ya kalo bikin cerita dngan judul kaya gitu?
tapi kalo dalam kehidupan, cerita semacam itu masih terjadi.
walaupun gue gamau ngalaminnya, ternyata Allah nentuin lain.

sejak setengah taun yang lalu, temen-temen sekelas gue selalu berdesas-desus,
"eh, dhil, si jaekoong gimana?"
[jaekoong = nama samaran, bukan berarti dia mirip jaejoong >> jaejoong kegeleng truk ngusruk ke sawah mah iya
nama ini didapat setelah jiwon salah ngetik nama jaejoong dan gue ketawain abis-abisan]
belom lagi si hyuri pernah sms:
jaekoong, haein chuaeyo. chua artinya suka. ngerti, kan?

awalnya gue ma lempeng-lempeng aja, da dia ini yang ngeceng,
dan ngeceng itu haknya dia, gue ga berhak ngelarang.
tapi gue merasa terganggu saat temen-temen gue semakin sering nyorakin,
trus si jaekoong kadang suka sok-sok perhatian gitu [ARGH],
dan sekalinya gue ga sengaja duduk sebelahan sama si jaekoong,
temen-temen langsung nyorakin,
ngegeser-geser bangku kita berdua supaya makin ngedeket.
dan yang lebih parah, si jaekoong ini terlihat bangga pas temen-temen sekelas tau tentang 'perasaannya' itu.
ugh, gimana gue ga ngerasa keganggu coba?
-mana jaekoong t orangnya udah jelek [maaf] kurang tampan, gila, suka vulgar lagi? omo..-

dan beberapa bulan terakhir, gue ngerasain sesuatu.
setelah diselidiki.. ternyata gue ngeceng *hankyung palsu*
[dinamai hankyung palsu karna bntuk matanya mirip, trus caranya nyengir mirip banget]
dan si hankyung ini adalah bestfriend si jaekoong sejak awal taun ajaran.

awalnya gue biasa aja ngeceng dia. kadang-kadang ngeliatin, tpi ga over.
[kalo ketauan bisa gawat soalnya]
tapi akhir-akhir ini, gue ada bad feeling si hankyung udah mulai tau.
gue punya banyak alasan kenapa gue mikir gitu [tapi gue gamau nulis di sini].
dan gue juga mulai curiga si jaekoong tau tentang itu.

gue harus gimana?
masalahnya, mereka berdua itu temen sekelas gue,
dan jaekoong termasuk sahabat gue.
gue ga enak sama mereka berdua seandainya mereka beneran tau tentang itu semua..

zee's new bloggie <3

MUCHOGUSTOOO.
now ZEE has her very own blog! :)

lemme introduce myself first.
my real name is DHILA, but some ppl knows me as ZEE.
im 14 going to 15, its at August 10th! [looking forward for presents, guys]
live in bandung, indonesia. know where it is? YOU HAVE TO.
imma KOREAN ARTIST lover!
dongbangshinki, superjunior, ftisland, sg wannabe are <333

well uhm.. just go and read my next posts.
this first post is reaaaally not a must-read. haha.